I am very lost and depressed now... Haiz... Since the conversation during the chalet, i have been thinking of wat i should do... At this time of point i should be concentrating my studies and exam, but wat we talk that night really poke into my heart... Making me think of wat did i do, why did i do that, wat is the cost of doing that...

I was thinking everything can be prevented but yet i was the one who make it happen... Y can't i just be faithful to my ex??? Y must i like another gal??? Wat worse is that because of trying to win the gal heart, i hurted my ex heart one time by one time, making her so sad till she really left me... Wat is the cost of doing all this, i lost my ex a person who will support me and who did love me with 100% heart she have, she is willing to do alot of thing for me just to see me happy and even encourage me to woo the gal i like. i lost the support which she will always give me when i need it and also lost the gal who i like...

Comparing wat i did and she did, i discovered that she really did a lot of thing to make me happy, but i keep on hurting her, remember wat she say to me, since i like another gal onwards, no matter how hard she try , i no longer is the stead who will like her like the past le... maybe in the past i will just forget wat she say, cos wat i think most important is to get the gal i like, but now thinking back, i am totally wrong...

I really dunno wat i should do... Cos i am really struck... I admit that i have a high confidence since young, that is y i keep on trying very hard to get the gal i want... But i think i am totally wrong,wasting almost 2 years waiting for the gal, she seem that she dun even ever like me at all... still remember at that time she still miss her ex alot... i kept on trying to make her forget it and try to accompany her to stop her from thinking... But i never ever think that my poor ex was facing the same thing... My ex can only be alone trying to forget me or cried alone at night when she miss me...

Thinking abt all this thing, i really regret abt hurting my ex in the past and shouldn't have fall in love with another gal... Eveything seem too late already, she is no longer there for me when i need her... If time can get back, i will change my way of doing thing and stay faithful with my ex...

i hope that i will not offend the gal i used to like when she saw this post... Sorry to my Ex, SHUYU...

Today was quite a sad day for me... After one year after u are gone... I tot that I can get through it easily but I now know wad my friend say abt being a cheater of myself... At the moment when I saw your photo, my whole heart almost collapsed...All the past memories just flash through... Still remember when I am sad I use to look for u , we will always talk till it is time to close the stall... Then I will hold your hand and walk out of the temple...I dunno when I can forget u but I still hope that u are still alive but I knew that it is impossible.. Remember u are always in my heart, really hope that next time I still can be your nephew... Take care Aunt... Missing u and loving u always...

The above post is Dedicated to my BELOVED ELDEST AUNT......