DO I REALLY HAVE FRIEND WHO UNDERSTAND ME OR NOT...
I have been thinking this few days... Do i have friend who really understand me... I think those who understand me are in NS now or no longer closed to me le... The rest leh... Really a big disappointed... Maybe wat shuxiang say is true... I think too much le... But when I feeling low, who is there for me to find... No one... I only faced my room walls and shared my sadness with them... PPL may say i am so silly... But it is me CHENSIANG... I only find friend who i wish to talk, but i just could not find one at all when i needed them... Ppl see me laugh when i am with them, but who know that the inside me is sad... Haiz... Now i started to have the thinking of not being friends with anyone and start to isolate myelf with all my friends... Maybe this wat the surrounding forced me to do ba... I already tired of smsing ppl who never reply, doing things for other yet they dun appreciate it... Maybe i am just facing a downfall now ... I had never been so depressd in my own life... But this time something really hit my hard... Maybe i got to change the thinking of myself but how can a person change the way of thinking... I really dunno... IS THERE ANYONE WHO CAN GIVE ME AN ANSWER... :`(
Sunday, June 27, 2004
Finally my 2 brothers have booked out for the first time from NS... Very happy to see them... Qiang has become stronger and darker while Hao dun seem to have change... Haha...Dunno he really go fo NS or not...
Sian suddenly felt very depressed by wat Shengxin said... Y i wanna care wat ppl think of me... Haiz... But wat can i do to help Jeremy leh... I really dunno... I can said that i had really enough of him loh... When i think back, he become someone who took us for granted... When he need help then he talk properly to u, if not he will scold bad words to u back... Wat for care for such a person, i think just let him be... I already told myself from today onwards i will never care wat happen to jeremy ... It is time for himself to take care of himself... No longer with me there for him when he need me... Cos i need time to cure my own problem...
There is something i wanna passed to Shengxin... If u are a guy then proved yourself as a guy, dun kana hit back, low low mood and seem like wanna died like that... Somemore not happy blamed yourself useless... Dun try to say me, i can turn to be very friendless person now loh...
Sian suddenly felt very depressed by wat Shengxin said... Y i wanna care wat ppl think of me... Haiz... But wat can i do to help Jeremy leh... I really dunno... I can said that i had really enough of him loh... When i think back, he become someone who took us for granted... When he need help then he talk properly to u, if not he will scold bad words to u back... Wat for care for such a person, i think just let him be... I already told myself from today onwards i will never care wat happen to jeremy ... It is time for himself to take care of himself... No longer with me there for him when he need me... Cos i need time to cure my own problem...
There is something i wanna passed to Shengxin... If u are a guy then proved yourself as a guy, dun kana hit back, low low mood and seem like wanna died like that... Somemore not happy blamed yourself useless... Dun try to say me, i can turn to be very friendless person now loh...
Saturday, June 26, 2004
You are Xuan Wu!
Mythological background: Because the turtle has a
thick, solid shell that serves as protection -
this animal is associated with stability. You
enjoy intellectual pursuits.
Also, in Feng Shui (the Chinese myths behind
choosing a house), the black turtle's solidity
is used to protect from cold northern winds.
Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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Monday, June 14, 2004
WHAT IS LOVE AND WHAT IS LIKE.......
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring. But in front of the person you like, winter just seems like a beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush. But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile. In front of the person you love, you can't say everything on your mind. But in front of the person you like, you can. In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy But in front of the person you like, you can show the real you. The person you love, comes into your mind every two minutes. You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love. But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like. When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. The feeling of love starts from the eye And the feeling of like starts from the ear.
So, if you stop liking a person you used to like,
all you need to do is cover your ears; but if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring. But in front of the person you like, winter just seems like a beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush. But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile. In front of the person you love, you can't say everything on your mind. But in front of the person you like, you can. In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy But in front of the person you like, you can show the real you. The person you love, comes into your mind every two minutes. You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love. But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like. When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. The feeling of love starts from the eye And the feeling of like starts from the ear.
So, if you stop liking a person you used to like,
all you need to do is cover your ears; but if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Issit really time to let go of...
Finally time to update my blog le... I changed my blog into the one with the black ground... It seem like a tomb to me... ME really hope that it will be the tomb for me till this point of time... Maybe wat Belinda say is true... It is time for me to change and start all over again... No point dragging the thing anymore... Maybe i am the one who keep on dragging the thing... I think shuyu is the most clever one ba... She knew how to get out of the situation on time... Saying is easier than anything but how well can a person really start all over again... If one can do it and dun discovered that he or she is actually cheating himself or herself that is good... Not that i never try to forget but i knew i am a cheater to myself... Cheating myself saying that i dun like u... Cheating myself that there is a possible that i can forget u and treat u as a stranger... If there is such thing as starting all over again,i will choose to leave braddell secondary school when i am in sec one, if i know, i will never walk into westlake secondary ava... But there is no return anymore... Issit really so hard to get the one u really liked...
If it is really time to give everything up, then i can say that i really give up in relationship... it is too hurtful for me although i am a strong guy from my appearance,but there is still time which i can't take it ... I seem to start hating gals a bit but of cos i won't be a gay for sure... I shall live in an environment without love and maybe it will be better for my life... From this min onward, my life will be named ALONE...
Finally time to update my blog le... I changed my blog into the one with the black ground... It seem like a tomb to me... ME really hope that it will be the tomb for me till this point of time... Maybe wat Belinda say is true... It is time for me to change and start all over again... No point dragging the thing anymore... Maybe i am the one who keep on dragging the thing... I think shuyu is the most clever one ba... She knew how to get out of the situation on time... Saying is easier than anything but how well can a person really start all over again... If one can do it and dun discovered that he or she is actually cheating himself or herself that is good... Not that i never try to forget but i knew i am a cheater to myself... Cheating myself saying that i dun like u... Cheating myself that there is a possible that i can forget u and treat u as a stranger... If there is such thing as starting all over again,i will choose to leave braddell secondary school when i am in sec one, if i know, i will never walk into westlake secondary ava... But there is no return anymore... Issit really so hard to get the one u really liked...
If it is really time to give everything up, then i can say that i really give up in relationship... it is too hurtful for me although i am a strong guy from my appearance,but there is still time which i can't take it ... I seem to start hating gals a bit but of cos i won't be a gay for sure... I shall live in an environment without love and maybe it will be better for my life... From this min onward, my life will be named ALONE...
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