23 days to NS........
 
Left only 23 days to my enlistment day and also 24 days to my graduation ceremony... Time is running very fast... I now sense that i had not enough time le... Sound like i going to die like that... Haha... maybe i am a bit nervous when i still have many thing undone before getting in NS...PPl have also said things like  "Enlistment still long la" or when i wanna treat them dinner, Belinda say sound like i going jail last dinner like that... Wahaha...
 
Haiz... 4 more days to that day le... Hope becoming less and less... Cos the situation now is really not favourable for me... Somemore Haiz... REally dun dare to go and think... See the way she is busy i dun think she can even afford to spend time with me for a walk or dinner before i get into NS... Does it mean that it is really going to the end of me and her... I knew i did something which really hurt her but this time i really wanna change... A lot of ppl can be my witness especially i think BL know abt it here and there cause i think if she get involve too much, things maybe not so good either... Somemore now I knew that she is very busy with her schoolwork and projects till she dun wish to talk abt all this, i dun mind she dun get back now... But at least she can understand how i feel and what i feel... Still remember the Forgive and forget theory she wrote to me on 24 April 2000 when she was my god sister when she was talking abt me and abbie saying that we should accept each other and forget wat had happened in the past... But now, things have changed... I really fear that i can no longer get back the gal which once loved me so wholeheartedly yet also the one which i hurt deeply...

ONE PROBLEM DOWN...
 
Yesterday was a day i finally got to have dinner with Abbie for the first time since we knew each other... A simple yet meaningful dinner causes i was quite guilty for so many years that in the past as my stead, i not even treated her a proper meal or eaten anything with me... So i tried to get her out for dinner for many times but just lack of courage to do so... Till that day i was thinking i shouldn't continue like this... Arbo i won't get to see her when i get to NS... Yesterday went to Breeks for dinner but it was unexpected that it last less than an hour... Cos her friend keep asking her to go other place... Haiz... Didn't get the time to take a neoprint or so as a memo...
 
Next, I was thinking my temper and patient getting worst and worst le... I think i can sometime become angry very easy and also very frustrated while waiting for calls or sms... Sometime i could get very worry when i sms someone yet after a long time the person didn't reply... She maybe busy or she can't hear the ring tone... But it is very worry for me lo... Haiz... If Shuyu do come and see this she will understand.... I worry cos i care for that person not trying to find thing to quarrel with that person...
 
Less than a month for NS le... Haiz... Hoping that thing will all be ready by then and all the wishes i haven't come true i am able to get through and settle it one by one before i go NS... Take care everyone...

MIND IS CLEAR !!!
 
Finally i have come to a decision of who i really need... It has been a long time going after the answer until recently when i came across something and also some place which make me know the answer... Now not much ppl know the answer maybe except Belinda and Hao ba... Haha... U all dun anyhow think think k... But here come the problem... Thing maybe tough if i wanna get this person... Me now very lost abt how should i go abt and what i have to do in the first place to get back trust etc... Left not much time to deal with it le.. Just hoping everything can come out smoothly... It is very tiring this week as i got to learn swimming... Haiz... Hope i can catch up swimming asap... Nothing much to say also... Btw, I wonder y i sms someone yet the person kept on not replying... U should know who u are... Haiz... Just hope u can reply or sms me when u are free... Take care everyone... Nitez Nitez...

MY NIECE WEDDING


Just came back from my niece wedding dinner... It was so grand but the food over there really suck... Hahaha... Thing doesn't seem nice at all... Yet it was so expensive... It was so funny when the four generation are together chatting and laughing away although in between there is almost a BIG event which might cause family breakup between my cousins, but luckily everyone was here in time... Haha... Quite a happy event just that everyone was thinking if my eldest aunt was here she will be very happy, but she just couldn't wait till today... Haiz... But i knew that somewhere some place she is around and she will be happy for my niece...

Sian feeling a bit unwell after drinking some red wine and beer... Haiz... I think i drank too much le... Gtg rest liao... Take care,nitez everyone...

Many days never update le... Because everyday came home late so lazy to update my blog... Monday went back to school, when to meet Congren for lunch... Happen to see his stead with him... Haha... His stead look quite ok except i think sue to smoking ba, her teeth a bit yellow... Remember Congren told me that the gal he like are very pretty, but then i saw his stead, he was telling me cannot continue to look for pretty wan le... No fish ,prawn also good... People really can change their mind very fast... So fast can turn into another person... Looking on the calendar, soon will be time to report NS le... Haiz... Really very sian... Seem like i still can't get myself out of something... Dunno wat i shall do la... Try to figure out wat i wish... This few days i bought a few things... One of them is a crystal display of dolphin another one is a set of crystal display turtles... K la... Nothing to update le... Take care all my friends...

Yesterday was having a different experience in life... Finally got a ride from my friend on a bike... ALthough i not first time take a ride but it is my first time in Singapore... Thanx Zong Ren for the ride... Haha...

just remember Amanda seem to disappear again... Dunno where she gone liao... She is quite a good talker... Manage to talk to her for a few hours on that night during black out... From wat alex say, i really wondering she telling the truth or not... Dunno la... Not my problem also...

Now already one week liao... Quite happy with my life... I proved that without them i still can be happy... Haha... Got to train for my NS liao... Before i go in and suffer... Take care everyone...

BLACKOUT on TUESDAY...

First time in Singapore to encounter blackout... Haha... Quite a fun experience when the house is lit with candles... Sound like candle lit dinner... Wahaha...I was watching TV when the blackout occur...

This few days were quite a peaceful day for me, go work, go temple and come home to sleep... Wahaha...Suddenly become a person who like to sleep... Inside office i can also sleep... Maybe feeling too tired le ba...

I found that going temple really let me relax... Inside temple, it give me a peaceful presence unlike outside roaming aimlessly... Sound a bit weird la... But i really can go around SG and do nothing...

Tomolo will be the last day of my attachment in Sengkang le... Haiz... Still never got a chance to see someone... Maybe it is fate that we can't meet ba... It seem so near but yet so far... I think i going to miss my friends in the company liao... SAD... SPLRT S&C rock........