Fuck up week....
This week really sian for me... Suddenly fell sick on the first day of the week... My stomach keep having problem... Wondering wat is going wrong le... Lost of appetites too... Lucky now getting better le... This week i bought a statue of Shan Cai Tong Zi home...Haha... Although cost a bit but i just simply like it... Wat to do to make sure my mother dun angry with it leh... cos it is temporary put at my aunt house...
Now then i knew that the box of chocolate which i suppose to give one of my ex is still in my house... The winnie the pooh things are also at my aunt house collecting dust... Haiz... See this thing really make my heart pain... Wondering how is she now, whether her family is fine by now...Actually miss her alot... But...... Dun say le...
Think of it, time passed damn fast, next month on this date i will be in army for one year le... This one year really hard to get through... Friendship la, relationship la... Making my life feel so low and lonely...Always have friend entering my life and leaving me too... Just sick of a lot of things... Really hope that someone is there for me to lean on... One person walk alone till noe really make me sad... Haiz...
Stop all the sad thing la... A good new, my good buddy Liying finally got boyfriend liao... Haha... He is also a NIE student specialise in P.E. Haha... A guy who seem quite trustworthy... Hope that they can be togther for a long long time... Haha... Gong Xi Gong Xi... sound like CNY...
K la stop my crap le here le... Take care everyone Especially "U" and your family... I will be back to update my blog once i got something to blog... See u guys next time... Nitez...
Monday, July 18, 2005
Monday, July 11, 2005
HAIZ......
Seen shuyu lastest blog... A paragraph there for a old friend... Wondering who is it for... Issit me... Haiz... Been a few weeks since i found that she has a BF... Have been trying to avoid thinking of this issue to make myself reduce the pain... Ever i seen the photo, my heart really shattered into tiny tiny pieces... Always trying to make myself busy or even every night making myself come home as late as 12 midnight... I really know how the pain is when u knew that the one u loved is with other ppl... This time really make me can't even cry out at all... I am really sian le... Wondering wat is so great abt LOVE... It just simply hurt... I need to thank Hao, Rachel, shuxiang, BL , jeremy and some of my friends who are there to be with me during that time... At least now I knew my jie jie also same with me Ti Gon Ti Siao in front of all our friends... Giving me a lot of advices but I am really sorry that I couldn't followed wat u all say to me... I knew that asking me to find a new gal is simple, but wanting to find someone I really like or love is difficult... I really give up in relationship... Remember a sentence of shuyu letter on 2002 Christmas eve " if i can really forget abt our relationship, maybe... maybe i will let other have a change"... This have come true but for me, even i can forget abt it, I will never ever get into relationship anymore... Seeing ppl couple walking together really feel so envious but thinking of myself alone , life really miserable and meaningless... Now everybody seem to think that me and rachel are so good and may have a chance to be together but I just wanna tell everyone, my heart only can place shuyu... For now and forever... I dun wish to hurt rachel or let her become a sub of shuyu... I can't do it... Is unfair to her... If in the past, maybe I will try my best to go for shuyu so wat she has a stead, Remember she saying it, if i belong to her no matter how long I will be her even if we got to go thorugh alot of hardship...But now, I just really hope that she can be happy with her BF, if she is happy, i am willing to do watever thing for her including leaving her alone... Shuyu, u will be my friend forever and remain in my heart always... Leave me alone even after u see this blog... I dun wan to make thing difficult for u... Only my blog I will tell her my feeling... I will just sum up my whole blog with the song HOU LAI of Liu Ruo Ying... The lyrics really really tell how i am feeling... Take care of yourself always, hope that your cough is fine by now dun worry u will be fine and your family will be alright, things in your family will be ok soon...
Seen shuyu lastest blog... A paragraph there for a old friend... Wondering who is it for... Issit me... Haiz... Been a few weeks since i found that she has a BF... Have been trying to avoid thinking of this issue to make myself reduce the pain... Ever i seen the photo, my heart really shattered into tiny tiny pieces... Always trying to make myself busy or even every night making myself come home as late as 12 midnight... I really know how the pain is when u knew that the one u loved is with other ppl... This time really make me can't even cry out at all... I am really sian le... Wondering wat is so great abt LOVE... It just simply hurt... I need to thank Hao, Rachel, shuxiang, BL , jeremy and some of my friends who are there to be with me during that time... At least now I knew my jie jie also same with me Ti Gon Ti Siao in front of all our friends... Giving me a lot of advices but I am really sorry that I couldn't followed wat u all say to me... I knew that asking me to find a new gal is simple, but wanting to find someone I really like or love is difficult... I really give up in relationship... Remember a sentence of shuyu letter on 2002 Christmas eve " if i can really forget abt our relationship, maybe... maybe i will let other have a change"... This have come true but for me, even i can forget abt it, I will never ever get into relationship anymore... Seeing ppl couple walking together really feel so envious but thinking of myself alone , life really miserable and meaningless... Now everybody seem to think that me and rachel are so good and may have a chance to be together but I just wanna tell everyone, my heart only can place shuyu... For now and forever... I dun wish to hurt rachel or let her become a sub of shuyu... I can't do it... Is unfair to her... If in the past, maybe I will try my best to go for shuyu so wat she has a stead, Remember she saying it, if i belong to her no matter how long I will be her even if we got to go thorugh alot of hardship...But now, I just really hope that she can be happy with her BF, if she is happy, i am willing to do watever thing for her including leaving her alone... Shuyu, u will be my friend forever and remain in my heart always... Leave me alone even after u see this blog... I dun wan to make thing difficult for u... Only my blog I will tell her my feeling... I will just sum up my whole blog with the song HOU LAI of Liu Ruo Ying... The lyrics really really tell how i am feeling... Take care of yourself always, hope that your cough is fine by now dun worry u will be fine and your family will be alright, things in your family will be ok soon...
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